I LOVE MY

NEW BEDROOM
IT IS HOT
NEW WALLPAPER
NEW CARPET
FAIRY LIGHTS
everything is spectacular.
MLIA.
my life is amazing.
Rach is home, Bernard is home, school is out, its snowy, everything is fabbbb.

Christmas :D

Last two days of school were fabbb also.
Cheered my socks off in the prefect dance for Jess and Lizzy and Evie :) (altered there cause i forgot someone special!)
Played in the snow, and scared little children with tree faces made of snow.
NEARLY CHRISTMAS :D

luh-huh-ving life.
<3
Hannah

Falalalala-

lalalala :)
Tis the season to be jolly, and my gosh, thats what I'm doing.
Don't think I've been in a better mood all Year 11 for such a long period of time :)
Started monday evening, for various reasons (thank you to fraser for making me well happy and tired :L [And for eating my cupcakes] )
And now, still in a fantastic mood.
My wallpaper is up, my carpet will be here soon, everything is amazing, Rach is home soon, Bernard is home soon, oooffff :D :D
Life is good, life is fine. (Cause I've got a girl and no-one likes you?...)

Yep, I have my girls.
That volcanoey-stress-ball-needing-very-clever-and-pretty friend who I can't live without, and I must say, I love you lots, and will never ever forget it, and will always be here for you to kick, and let your door have a break, I love you more than you love Davis :) <3

That beautiful friend with the awe-inspiring glands, and who never fails to make me giggle in francais, and who will never replace me with Hamlet ;) <3

That blonde doe eyed friend, without whom I would die in Chemistry and Biology, these 2 years in science have been amazing and I love you <3

That kooky puffy eyed short eyebrow friend that I love to chat in Latin in History with, who loves my stories, and who always tells me off for distracting her in History, yet she laughs about Persian Ladies Nightgowns, and she's my friend who's been in for the long haul :P <3



Thank you for loving me back, even though you guys are amazing and I'm not :)
What would i ever, ever, ever?! do without you?



Cry, i reckon :)

Yours forever my lovelies,
Hannah

Wild horses, couldn't

drag me away.
I am in a good mood.
Which means I am making a good listener for all those in bad moods.
Because I'm not annoyed that my bad stuff is being listened to.
But at the moment, no bad stuff of my own.
So unburden yourselves, tell me, I have open ears.

I am in such a good mood.
I shouldn't be.
Seriously.
There is hardly anything majorly good in my life.
But its the little things, isn't it.
New wallpaper in your room.
Holding someones hand.
Making cupcakes.
Those things make me super happy.

So here's to not thinking about all the crap in my life for once.
And thankyou friends, for making me realise that other people have problems.
(Although some of you need to think about that yourselves, just because I don't always tell you about my crap, doesn't mean I don't have any)

But.
Not thinking about that.
And thinking about Mr Derek playing the piano.
Now that makes me smile :)

And in general, I think you should all do yourselves a favour, and appreciate anything good you have. And there will be something. And then smile :)

Everyone else is

having a crisis. :/
Luckily, at the moment, I'm pretty good.
I completely erased the one person who made me feel like shit, so now, I'm ok.
Concentrating on friends, family and school at the moment, and having a good year.
Because year 10 and the 1st bit of year 11 was utterly crap because of that one person, now I don't care about him anymore, and I think i deserve to enjoy myself.
And I don't feel sad at all if he ever feels like crap, or that he's having a rough time at school at the moment, because 2 years (almost) he made me feel awful, guilty, hopeful, worthless. And then sometimes you acted like I was your favourite person in the world, you would look at me and your stare made me think you could have felt the same way.
I remember all the times vividly.
You won't ever read this, but you know how I feel.
And I feel amazing and empowered because I told you. So now, anything you do, anyone you go out with, anything you say, will mean nothing to me.
And I like it that way.
:)
Sorry for being a bitch, but you were aswell, for 2 years. Live with it.

x.Hannah.x

ok seriously,

i am sorry that these are just mindless mundane blogs of photos.

but how inexplainably cute and heartwrenching is this?

that little snakey

poor little snapey

all the cute little gryffindors

with their cute animals

awwwww

<3

sorry for the overload of photos :)

Me and my sister made these cakes

for her boyfriend, ben,

because it was his birthday :)

Most of these photos

and the ones from the previous post

are from papertissue.

Love.

butterflies fly away.

You are annoying.

4 exams down...

11 to go. How depressing is that?!
I think I am programmed not to revise. Though to be fair to myself, I did sooo much biology and chemistry, which I guess helped a bit. I finished biology 15 minutes early :)

So I have maths and music tomorrow. Hopefully music will be a doddle, but I should probably do something for maths...

Or not. Facebook >:(
Blogger >:(
4OD >:(
Internet in general and other various procrastination-y websites >:(

Sooo, hopefully in half term I am going up to Durham for a few days to stay with my baby girlll :)
Here's hoping she takes me to klute ;) (that is, if i can get in)

At the moment, I am wellll looking forward to Christmassssss
Not really even Christmas day, but really the last few days of Christmas before the hols :)
Warm scarves, vests under school shirts, christmas panto, and best of all, the epic fail they call the "prefect dance". Blates going to be amazing, sitting in the audience, watching some of the besties on stage making a complete arse of themselves in the best possible way. Seriously though, I reckon they'll be good. Vote of faith for you guys in this corner :)

Also, luh-ving Justin Bieber. One Time <3
The video is oddly fantastic. He is also oddly hot. And oddly, I love the song.

And blogging is relief for the soul.

And I'm on a CD :D
On the little insert thingy. And literally, on it. Singing :)
Loving life for the moment.
No doubt that will change pretty soon, what with 11 more exams to do in the next 2 weeks.
But, for now... :D

Love you lots, friends :)
x.Hannah.x

Oh my. Its been

8 whole days since i blogged, saying i would blog more, and apologising for the gap between that blog and the previous blog saying i would blog more!
Bad Hannah.
So.
Millais is supercool and let us have yesterday off, as like a New Moon bank holiday or something :)
Sooo, i went to Lizzy's for a sleepover, and we did loadsa fun stuff :)
Made eminem on the sims,
sang along to the radio for 2 hours, substituting the words Mr Monk in every song we could,
then watched Mean Girls and lolled at Damian,
ate kettle chips and mini-rolls,
someone was forced into watching Doctor Who, (the one with the werewolf),
then went to bed at 2.
Then Cindy came and slept on us for a little while in the morning.
Then i had coco pops :D
and Lizzy had crumpets! (Jealous, anyone?)
Then we went out.
To Crawley. And saw New Moon.
After various delays :L
But it was good.
People in the back of the cinema 'Ooooh'-ed when Jacob took off his shirt :L
Then we went home.
Then I did physics :(
But all in all, a fabby weekend :)
<3
x.Hannah.x

I'm sorry Fellow

Bloggers. I promised to blog more. And i haven't. :)
I'm sure you'll forgive me?...
Good.
So last night, i went to Brighton to a concert thing in a cathedral (!) which was greaaat. :)
But i don't feel so great today. I haven't spoken to Sam in ages, and i am having withdrawal symptoms. Also, someone lied to me. You know who you are, sir. You agreed with me that she was annoying and stuck-up, and now you're going out with her? Don't get me wrong, i'm not annoyed that you're going out with her, but i AM annoyed that you pretended that you didn't like her aswell, so now i feel all guilty for being horrible about her. But c'mon, she is stuck-up. She effectively said that I was dumb because I went to Millais. Not nice.
But whatever, she obviously likes you, friend.

And I'm cold.
And tired.
And I don't have a radiator.
And I can't pick out of 2 A-levels.
And I'm worried. About the future.

So long for now.
x.Hannah.x

It's ok people, I

am blogging again :)
I had a couln't-be-bothered phase.
But i'm back, baby ;)

Songs are me at the moment. I don't think I ever spent a minute without music playing, or without singing, or without a song in my head. And I actually dream along to songs. I have background music in my dreams. How freakilycool is that?

So, a few of my favourite songs/lyrics ever. Every single one of these songs mean so much to me. Play count on itunes shows that. 359 plays of that last one. And mostly 100-200 plays of the others. I couldn't live without these songs, and way more other ones. (Except the 1st one, thats just a cool song me and Lizzy like :L But that one line in it means a lot. Even if the context is different.)
This is basically me revealing my soul :L I guess it would be better if you could hear them. Oh well, lyrics will do. Enjoy.

"You build me up, you break me down, my heart it pounds, yeah you got me..."

"The sweeping insensitivity of this still life..."

"This is how it works: You're young until you're not; You love until you don't; You try until you can't; You laugh until you cry; You cry until you laugh, and everyone must breathe, until their dying breath..."

"Its you and me, and all of the people, and I dont know why, I cant keep my eyes off of you..."

"And it breaks my heart..."

"And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times, its you, its you, you make me sing, you're every line, you're every word, you're everything..."

"I heard you say "Can I have you?" Caught up in what to say, I said you do, I said you do. Through my eyes I can see a shooting star, weaving it's way across the city..."

"And the truth is, I miss you, I miss you so..."

"Close my eyes, you're the only one that leaves me completely breathless, no need to wonder why, sometimes a gift like this you can't deny, cause I wanted to fly, so you gave my your wings, and time held its breath so i could see, you set me free..."

"Oh go ahead and lie to me, you can say anything...it all depends on you...listen up, this sun hasn't set, I refuse to believe its only me...just hear me out, i'm not over you yet...the smile I fake...can't you tell, I'm not myself...I don't want to feel anything, but I do, and it all comes back to you... love is on the line, is that your final answer...just listen up, just hear me out..."

x.Hannah.x

Ahaha, I have music

today :/ My composition is crap, and Miss Stredwick is blates going to kill me.
Poooooo.
Oh well, i'll pretend i went on holiday :L
Any good holiday places that i can pretend to have gone to...?
Yorkshire?
Cornwall? Noo, thats too summery.
Isle of Whight or however you spell it.
Yep, that'll do :)
x.Hannah.x

Update for Wednesday, because

i was out all day, so no chance to blog.
I went to Bath with my 'rents, got there at like 1.00 to find fish and chips waiting for us :D
Was feeling really tired, so only had a few chips :) Plus, my grampy got me pie, and i dont like pie, in my defence, it was steak and ale or something, yeurrgh :L
Then sat around and chatted for ages, then went down the road to my great aunt and uncles, sat around there for a while.
When we left, my grampy gave me 10 pounds.
Then, my great uncle gave me 20 pounds.
THEN, my great aunt gave me 30 pounds, so i came back with 60 pounds!!! Woooohooo :)
Fell asleep on the way home, my mum woke me up at half eight, told me we were in guildford, then said we were going to pizza hut in guildford for tea!
I was pretty happy, as my lack of lunch was making me hungry :)
Brillllllliant day in all, jealous much?
Ahhh, i wonder what i shall spend it on...
x.Hannah.x

I should really

be a bit more modest :L
Someone said to me yesterday, "You have a lovely singing voice"
and i was like
"yeahh, i know."
Ahh well, confidence doesn't come without a little bit of vanity.
And to be honest, i'm not vain about anything else :)
So i forgive myself.
Please forgive me too, bloggers :)

Halfff terrmmm!

x.Hannah.x

To be honest, I

really can't be bothered to blog.
Seriously.
But i'll do a rubbish one.

Yesterday went to the cinema, to see UP3D :)
Was pretty great, loved the glasses ;)

Umm, today, nothing muchhh.
Church, lunch, fusion
Yahhh, so. Hope everyone is having more fun shizz than me :)
x.Hannah.x

You know that you

are addicted to blogging when you have 22 posts for 16 days ;)


So. I have a lot of things to sort out. I wont divulge on here. But i need to get my head straight and see things clearly again. I think i've been a bit pig-headed and shizz, which isnt nice.


Someone very wise once said : "You need to sort things out? Roll your sleeves up first so people know you mean business."
Ok, so he isn't actually a very wise person, but i see what he means. And you can expect a lot of sleeve-rolling from my direction.
Thank you for the advice, Sam. Though I dont think i'm going to go to you for parenting advice ;)
He also famously said "I know who my real friends are, they're the ones who would come and visit you in prison, and the ones who don't steal your fags, but they ask you first"

Although the context is a bit out (!) , i reckon everyone knows what he means.

Gosh, i love that boy ;)
x.Hannah.x

(Sam Peacock quotes edited to make coherent sense and real words)

Yesterday i went

for a walk in my wellies with a dog called Boris :)
We had a nice chat.
He is very clever, and was telling me about bunnies.
It was about 2 hours or so.
I got bored of my own company.
Thats why i was talking to the dog.
He was very friendly.
He's not my dog though.
And i didnt steal him.
I promise.
x.Hannah.x

Oh goodness me, I love

talking to Sam Peacock more than life.
It actually makes me smile for like the rest of the day.
He is the epitome of awesomeness.
I think i would actually cry if i couldnt talk to him. :L
He's my best friend ;)
'Cept Lizzy. And Jess. And Hannah. and maybe some other people.
Ahhh well, he is my best male friend.
And ich liebe Sam.
Viele.

So, yahhh. Lizzy's home soooon (Y)
Hope you had fun down in Cornwall, drawing and what-have-you.
Who knows what a bunch of true artists do when they get sent to Cornwall for 5 days?
I sure don't.
Let's hope its fun stuff.
x.Hannah.x

Ok, so this sounds

like it is disgusting, but i made a really nice snack earlier :)
Its kinda like a flapjack, but...not.
Basically, its porridge oats with a tiny bit of milk and some golden syrup in to hold it all together and make it taste nice, in a cupcake paper dishy thing. And left to set. Or something.

Yummm.

x.Hannah.x

Status cloud from Facebook :)

I love finding out new

things about people. For example, i just discovered that 3 people i know have blogs. Not that that is particularly interesting, but it was to me.

Ok, so, current broodings are on respect.
Not like "Hey Mr HeadTeacher, i Respect you."
But like "Hey randomer-who-doesnt-care-what-people-think-of-you, i respect that."
(At risk of saying for example too many times)
For example:
there is a girl in my r.e class. She is Super-christian. And she isnt mocked or "teased" about it or anything, but people kinda know her as the "Religious" girl. And she doesnt seem to care that she's been classed like that. And yeah, it could be worse, she could be labelled as far more horrible and degrading things, but still, she's pretty cool about the whole thing.

And i admire her. I'm not scared of being labelled "religious", cause pretty much everyone knows i'm a christian and my mum's a minister and stuff. But I envy her nochalance.
But who knows, she could feel awful inside. Lets hope she doesn't.

People really can change lives in an instance.
That makes me worry that I'm affecting people in a bad way.
I dont think I am.
Hopefully.

x.Hannah.x

P.S - I promised myself I would try not to whine in this blog, especially about "relationships".
I'm doing good, huh? ;)

Well, right now I

am doing nothing of interest.

And will be doing nothing of interest.

It seems to me that i could be the only person in my year that doesn't actually do any work/homework/revision.
Which seems bad, as i have my GSCE mocks in November, and my real GSCE's in June time.

Except it isnt that bad. I reckon i can scrape B's without working. Except in Chemistry. And Music. So i'll work for those.
But seriously, i never revise. I just don't. Its not what i do. I am categorically not a hard worker. And yet i manage to just about get by.
Pour exemple:
We did 2 higher GSCE test papers in German last week, Listening and Reading (admitedly the easiest 2 of the 3 papers) and i got 33 out of 45 for both, which is an A.
And didn't revise or anything.
And, as anyone in my class would say, Mrs Gammon (my Deutsch teacher) is crap.

So yeahhh, i'll just wing it in my mocks, they don't count for anything anyway, and see what i actually need to work for. And i guess, even though i've said all that, when it gets to study leave, i will actually work. Fingers crossed.

Anything fun happen to me this week?
No. Not really.
Oh, but in Latin, Ollie and Tom were making fun of my laugh :L
Me and Jess were a bit hysterical, leading to much yelling from the Tatster. (Mr Tattersal, Latin Teacher, Bald.)

Sooo, weekend soon. Which means?
Cinema on Saturday (Me and Jess are going to see UP because we are that cool.)
Churchy usual stuff of Sunday
Then normal Monday
Then Opera-ra
Then LIZZY COMES HOME!!!!


Ahem.
x.Hannah.x

I think i love

early nights more than anything else.

Last night it was 7:30 :D
Was heaven.
Tonight?
9:30, snuggled in bed with my ipod.

Lizzyyyy have fun in St Ives, i love you and will miss you lotssss.
Will blog nice things for you to come back to :)
Byeee for 7 days :'(
Dont miss me too much ;)
And get me some cornwally stuff.
I LOBE YOUUUU
xxxxxxxxx

x.Hannah.x

I wish I had

something more interesting to blog about.
But, i dont.
So, basically, this is a post telling you nothing. Enjoy.

Aaactually, on Tuesday i'm going to the opera :D Glyndebourne, which is a super posh opera place. Been there already, went to Carmen last year. This time round, Cosi Fan Tutti, which is apparently a rom-com. ;)

So, yeah, thats it.
Hope you're more interesting than meee.
x.Hannah.x

Who knew that

Scottish country dancing could be so much fun? ;)
We had like a barn dance thingy fundraiser charity thing at church last night and it was hilarious. Me and my friendys Bethan and Fraser were just mucking around all evening, and getting everything completely wrong :)
Church Breakfast nowww.

Yummm.

Then church, then lunch, then this concerty thing called N:Vision with the fusioners.

Have a good day, all.
x.Hannah.x

I think today may

actually have been the 1st time in forever that i got up after 9 o'clock! Yayyy for sleeping in :D

A-ha-ddicted to blogging now... Ahwell :)

Sorry if you get nonsense blogs now, dont have any brain left.

You love it really, bloggers ;)

See you within the next like 10 minutes when i will inevitably blog again.
x.Hannah.x

I would like to

just wish a very very happy birthday to the one and only Lizzy Hillier, my bestest freundin in the whole of Germany.
Had a fabby party, O.S + TFB 4Eva ;)
Having a well deserved rest Saturday, with work shoved in throughout the day, because teachers hate year elevens and give us too much work :D
Also, been into town four times more than usual this week, so i deserve a break! Despite this, i will still get up at like 8 o'clock because thats what i do, even when i dont mean to.
On a slightly sadder note, its now widely known that a teacher at Tambridge, Mr Head, has been involved in a serious accident, but i know that much praying will be being done for him by members of SCMC and lots of other peoples. :)

Get better soon Mr Head :)
x.Hannah.x

Just about to

go out to Lizzy's partayyyy :D
Got her some fab presents aswell, if i do say so myself ;)

Exiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiited
Going in 15 so gotta rushhh
S'laters taters

x.Hannah.x

Ps: Waheyyyyyy :D:D:D:D

Had a very good

afternoon in town today :)
Went to order the balloon for Lizzy, then went to starbucks (tall chocolate cream frappuchino with cream :D and a bit of Jess's muffin) then went to the cafe near Sainsburys and watched some very, very hot college guys filming people in there. Me and jess have decided that guys with cameras are extra-hot ;)

Then came home, had beans on toast, then snuggled up in my bed with my laptop :D

Had a good day.

Hope you are having a good day too, cyberspace.

x.Hannah.x

p.s: does anyone else get really annoyed when randomer music people steal other peoples music? Jason Derulo ripped off a bit of Imogen Heap's song "Hide and Seek" and made it into "Watcha Say" which is crap. Just sayin.

I dont even know why

I'm blogging so early...

I feel like death physically, freezing cold, massive headache, but emotionally, i'm quite happy (for the time being).

Today?

Well, school (bleurghh) then into town for a coupla hours to purchase a very special someone's birthday present and ballooooon. ;)

Then home, then sleeeeep :D

Hope everyone has a good day,

x.Hannah.x

ok, ok, just a FEW more photos :D

I want these tooooooo :D

Not the 1st one, thats just a cool piccyture i found.

Ok, so little, wait, sorry, massive photo uploading over now.

Loves.

x.Hannah.x

Ahh i am such a baby. :D

I want all of theeeeeeeeese,

anyone feel like buying them all for me?

;) Pleeeease?

x.Hannah.x

Ever have those days when

all you want to do is curl up in your duvet and sleep?
I do today. Nearly fell asleep in r.e, last lesson. Got soaked walking around school, but luckily we were able to get a lift home instead of walking in the freezing cold and the rain. Not a nice day.
I have a piano lesson at 4:30, but i just want to sleeeeeep :(

Hope its all good for everyone,

x.Hannah.x

Just got back from

my schools open evening. I was there for 3 hours, started by greeting people, then did 3 guided tours around the whole school. I swear, the school should pay us for endorsing them so much. I have never said so many positive things in my life! I was like "as you can see, our GCSE results are excellent..."
On the plus side, I got my staff assistant badge tonight. Woohoo! I am actually, genuinely happy about that :L

I am such a boffin ;)

Now?
I seriously cannot be bothered with school tomorrow, feet hurt too much :'(
Wore a pair of new shoes to school, to town and to open evening, and they killed my tootsies. Ahwell, i got my badge. I dont care that i'm a nerd. Makes me cool. ;)

Hope everyone sleeps well,
nanight,
x.Hannah.x

Today I had

a half-day thingy at school. We finished at 1.15 and went into town for a few hours. We went to McDonalds to get my friend some chips. On one of them, was a little tiny black fly. A dead one. : Ew.
So that was fun. Didnt do much of note yesterday, but I did get 3 new pairs of shoes!!! And a new skirt! Yayyy!
Just to show how ditzy i can be, i locked myself out of my house for an hour, and it was raining, and it was cold, and i had to sit on the floor on top of a plastic wallet to stop myself getting soggy. :( At least i had my 2 lovely kittys to keep me company.

Tonight?:
My school is having an open evening for year 6's and i have been asked to help out, doing guided tours and little errands for the deputy head (as i am her staff assistant) for 3 hours. Don't expect it will be too much fun, but ahwell.

Hope everyone is having as fun an evening as i will be having ;)

x.Hannah.x

Currently enjoying

some cadbury's magic stars :D Not much interesting gone on today, just went to church this morning, then we had a kinda bring and sharey type lunch thingy.

At the moment?
Just sitting around with some friends, Tom and Rach, and snacking on magic stars and freddos :)
(I think everyone should take a moment to remember freddos, and how amazing they are. Oh, and also visit Tom Ockenden's blog, [You can find his blog on my followers] as it is embarrasingly bad)

Only joking. Or not. Whatever.

Hope everyone's having a good sunday evening, and looking forward to monday.

Laters ;)
x.Hannah.x

My sister went back to

university today. She's at Durham, which couldnt be further away if it tried. Wierdly, I'm not upset or anything, but maybe its because she's going for her 2nd year now, and I've kinda got used to it.
So this morning, we were rushing around getting all her stuff together while my parents were still asleep. But when we were done, we grabbed a bowl of cinnamon grahams (or whatever they're called now, they are those little cinnamonny-square things?) and watched some kids programme called "Pablo the little red fox" (which was adorable). It was nice to spend some time with her just before she went. <3 Rachy <3

My plans for today?
Well, one of my best friends, Lizzy, is having like a murder mystery type party next friday, so I'm going into town to see if i can get some bits and pieces for my costume. I need a huge hat, according to my character description. Off to get ready :)

Hope everyone's having a good day, or is looking forward to one.
x.Hannah.x